The Bloke had a seizure last night. We’d just started getting ready for bed and suddenly he made some strange noises and then collapsed onto the bed. His arms were twitching, he stopped breathing and he lay there with his eyes open, staring at me. About thirty seconds later he woke up with no memory of what had happened. It was the scariest moment of my life – I genuinely thought he was dead at one point. After a few worrying hours at the hospital all tests came back clear. He feels fairly reasonable today and so I’ve sent him up to his mother’s for a few days. It may sound cold, but he needs a break from here – he doesn’t sleep well because I move around a lot during the night and the neighbours are causing him anxiety and stress. His family are wonderful and so I know that he’ll be able to truly relax without having to listen to the chaos next door and be able to get a decent night’s sleep. I also know that he won’t be as stubborn with his mum as he is with me – if he had his own way he would be back in work today.

 After he left it was my first opportunity to reflect on what had actually happened and it made me so thankful that everything is, at the minute, ok at least. I’m not a religious person, but I’ve always had a strong belief that there are people watching over us from somewhere up there:  my grandparents, his father, his best friend… We’ve been extremely lucky in life and last night’s events were no exception – something looked after him and made him come back.

In fact, I have a lot of things to be thankful for. I’m thankful that we have our families and our health (hopefully, once he stops scaring the sh*t out of me). I’m thankful that we have a home, friends, the cats and secure jobs. I’m thankful that we make each other laugh, enjoy spending time together and that we have the opportunity to experience different places and things. I’m thankful that he’s affectionate, that he rubs my feet after a long day, turns up to every concert that I do, makes an effort with my friends and family, gives me photography tips and buys me little presents when he goes into town. I’m thankful that he adores the cats, indeed all animals, as much as I do and that he possesses a ‘Dr Doolittle’ quality which means they love him back. I’m thankful for his geekiness, that his Lego figurines are all over the house and his obsession with zombies (he even has a plan in case of a zombie apocalypse). I’m thankful that we get on each others nerves sometimes, that he takes forever to explain something technological, that he gets frustrated when I leave my clothes on the floor and that the weather is never right for him – it’s too hot, too cold, raining or too windy.

Most of all, I’m just thankful for him. I’d be lost without him.

56 thoughts on “Thankful

  1. Oh how frightening that must have been for you. I am so glad everything turned out to be alright in the end. I will keep the two of you in my prayers!!! *hugs*

  2. I’m so sorry you guys went through that! My husband has seizures as well and they are absolutely terrifying. Writing is the best form of therapy and I’m so glad you shared this with us. This is what I wrote after my hubby’s last seizure: I felt particularly traumatized that time. I hope you’re both recovering well! I know it doesn’t really help you out at all, but I understand how terrified and helpless you felt at the time. Sometimes it’s nice just knowing someone knows how you feel.

  3. My grand dad had a stroke when I was small, and I was the only person around to call for help. It all went good after that, he recovered and since then we are much more closer with him.

    I was scared as hell,not when that thing was happening, but afterwards, when it all calmed down. I’m sure that event will make you a stronger person, and It’ll connect you two even more.

  4. What a terrifying experience for both of you and for your families. And then you respond in true Suzie fashion – you write a loving article about this man you love.
    You and The Bloke are beautiful together, wishing you a million more photo ops like this one. May he have a quick and full recovery, and maybe you two can find a quieter place to live.

    • I’ve had first aid training so many times because I work with kids, but I forgot everything last night… My brain went blank.

      I said a similar thing to my mum this morning – I need extra training now…

      • I know it is different with the love ones. and think that you love them more than a stranger so why don’t you do more for them. you need something to remember to stay calm. choose something on him that will always tell you to stay calm.

  5. Sorry to hear! I have a mild seizure disorder myself but it’s easily controlled by meds. They can sneak up and be scarey for all involved! Best to you both. 🙂

  6. I’m thankful for that post. Very sweet, beautiful. A few months ago my daughter (14 months old at the time) had some “febrile” seizures. Scariest thing my wife and I had ever seen, called the paramedics, spent a few nights in the hospital. Our baby was fine, thank goodness. These kinds of events remind us how fragile and vulnerable we are, and how important it is to love, love, love (as the Beatles sang).

    My best to both of you. 🙂

  7. Crikey, sounds like an epic scare…I am glad the bloke is getting a rest and that you shared this and made me and others reflect on who they have and how they should treasure them.

  8. The two of you are adorable together! Send him some love and good wishes for me. I think taking a break with his Mum is the BEST thing he could do – don’t you just LOVE emergency rooms? I swear if I never ever see the inside of one again I will be nice and never swear again …………

  9. what a wonderful post. you love him, it’s that simple,isn’t it? I hope he feels better and that this does not happen again. Our men frustrate us so very much, but we would definitely be lost without them. Get some rest also, DAF

  10. Wow – what a shock. Hope the recovery goes well. My partner did the same thing a few years ago – fell off a chair and started fitting. He was so heavy I couldn’t turn him over into the recovery position and his legs were all tangled in the chair. Worked out ok in the end. Maybe sleep in separate beds with visiting rights…:)

  11. I like how you expressed how greatful you are to have him and what you have together and that you acknowledge your blessings. I don’t like that this happened to him and that you had to see him go through this. I hope all is well with him and with you. Please keep us updated. Sending you my best!

  12. Omg! That sounded frightful! Glad he is well and alive. You’re so in love with him. I’ve no doubt he is in love with you too. It’s not time for him to go. Lots of good times ahead.

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