I had a nice day today. I wasn’t needed for any supply, just a small amount of freelance in the afternoon where I get the opportunity to work with some of my favourite students.

Consequently, today has been predominantly a day of doing very little. While I have always been more of a night owl sort, I am beginning to love the very early morning time that I get to myself on these days after The Bloke has gone to work. It’s quiet and peaceful and while I can hear my neighbours taking their children to school or heading for work, I can often be found wrapped in fluffy blankets and reading in my jammies, or watching make-up tutorials on YouTube. Bliss. Sometimes, it’s just nice to do nothing.

After I had finished my ensemble work (which always gives me a huge buzz), I spent some time talking to one of the older students. I’ve known her for a number of years now, and watched her grow from a squeaky teenager into an intelligent, articulate and talented young woman, and we have developed quite a rapport. She told me about a fantastic opportunity that she has been offered to spend time studying in another country, but she was torn about what she should do as she has spent the last two years preparing for university. Of course, putting off university for a year is no big deal – I took a year out myself before I started my first year – but I can see why she is a little daunted by it all… It’s certainly not something I would have had the nerve to do at her age.

However, it did get me thinking about her life in direct contrast to mine. She’s working hard and setting the foundations for her future. She has plans, goals and ambitions.

I remember when I was the same. I had a set of ideals as to what I wanted my life to be, and planned a series of medium and long term goals to reach by the time I was 30. And do you know what? I bloody well achieved them, only to realise that when I had reached the place I thought I should be, it wasn’t what I wanted at all.

I think the conversation this afternoon made me realise that I don’t really have any goals or ambitions anymore, for the first time in as long as I can remember. Instead, I’m happy to sit back, relax and do nothing. I like the idea of not having to go anywhere or plan for constant activities. I don’t mind living from day to day without a secure and permanent job. I’d rather live with less money and sleep soundly at night instead.

Odd how priorities change, isn’t it?

42 thoughts on “Priorities

  1. “Odd how priorities change, isn’t it?”

    Yes, definitely. I have all of 2016 on a prioritization timeline (which is less formal than it sounds). If this has not been met by that date, then this or that will happen. Simple.

    • That sounds so organised! I’m just happy living from day to day at the minute… I was going to email you as I read your post and I’m gutted about your blog… Please keep in touch my lovely! (I know I’m rubbish at communicating, but I read almost every post…). Wishing you all my love and support!

      • I plan to be back at it in January-ish unless something (else) major happens between now and then. I’ll let you know “who” I am before then.

        Until then, email anytime! ❤

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  3. That’s life 🙂 I did a degree in something I thought I liked, then spent the next ten years working in the industry only to find it wasn’t for me after all. I love the simplicity you describe, you put it so well. Today I was unpacking from my trip (just got home yesterday) and found a sticker on some tissue paper that was wrapped around a top. It said ‘Enjoy The Small Things.’ I now have it on my desk where I can see it, to remind me of the pleasures I have. xx

  4. It is odd, have given 19 years to raising kids and sending them out into the big bad world, granted they have another 4 years of uni or an apprenticeship, but now I feel it’s the start of my time, if only I had a partner who shared the same bucket list mentality.

    • My mum was in the same situation ten years ago when my youngest sister moved out… However, she quickly got used to it and started to really enjoy it haha! (And she’ll deny it but she still loves ironing some of my clothes when I visit her!)

  5. Priorities indeed change! At age 55 next month, I feel satisfied with the past and now enjoy doing lots of nothing. Time changes our lives so much, glad you are finding your happy space in life. 🙂

  6. I actually don’t think I’ve ever set life goals. I had no idea where I “wanted” to be when I was 30 and still have no clue for what I want when I am 40. I’m breezy lol

  7. yep, I can’t be bothered to plan any more; done the let’s get to this by then stuff, unless its buying tickets for the cricket, when of course, planning is all… love the idea of ‘laying around like broccoli’ to describe slobbing about. I’m off to consider which particular vegetable I’m going to be today.

  8. Sometimes in life we find we need a reprise in order to be ready for what comes next.I used to chase the money , now I work so I can enjoy my life not work because work is my life, blogging has given me another focus and fueled my passion for writing.

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