At the beginning of August I felt fired up and motivated. My head was spinning with ideas about what I could do and achieve over the month and I had a whole bunch of plans as to how I was going to move forward.
It lasted two days.
It wasn’t intentional, but I ended up having an extended blogging break. I tried to convince myself that it was needed, but the truth of it was that I simply couldn’t muster up the enthusiasm to post anything on a regular basis. After six and a half years and thousands of articles the mental burnout was real.
It isn’t like I haven’t been busy. Over August I built up my social media client base, regularly attended fitness class (and developed a friendship with the instructor and her lovely family), went shopping with Helen from Journey to Ambeth and her daughter around Brum, seen some shows, had a weekend visit from my sister (during which we explored Kenilworth Castle on a very windy day) and then got smacked with a nasty cold virus thing that knocked me out for over a week.
The benefit of not being well enough to do much except lie on the couch is that it provides a lot of time to think, and as a result I’ve been able to straighten out various things in my head that were preventing me from doing anything of real worth to progress forward. The biggest realisations have been about not just what I want and where I would like to be in the future, but the work required to achieve it.
I still find this time of year rather strange. Schools go back tomorrow and in my old life I would have most of today feeling desperately depressed about the prospect of having to start another school year. This morning, however, I went for a walk during a glorious sunrise with almost nobody else around (aside from a few squirrels that were busy yelling at each other across the trees) and the sense of relief and gratitude that accompanied such a stunning start to the day was almost overwhelming. Tomorrow is my own. Yes, being self-employed is hard, particularly when competing for what is often small scraps of work, but I live a very privileged life. Sometimes I forget that.
So I start September with the same feeling I had a month ago. This time, however, I’m prepared. I have several blog posts ready to go, the comments section is now back on, my trackers are set in my Bullet Journal, I’ve committed to daily activities of self-improvement and (hopefully) nothing of significance will get in the way.
What about you guys? Does complacency affect your working habits? Do you forget to be thankful for the positive in life?
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