Making Time for Myself

imageThere’s a scene in Office Space, one of my favourite films, where two of the characters are discussing what they would do with a million dollars. I remember watching the film for the first time several years ago when things were extremely tough in my personal life, and Peter’s response really struck a chord with me:

Peter Gibbons: I would relax… I would sit on my ass all day… I would do nothing.

Yes. This. This is what I would do, I thought to myself. Of course, doing nothing every day would become tedious and boring very quickly, but in the state of panic and anxiety that I had, with such an immense amount of pressure on a daily basis, the idea of doing nothing sounded like heaven.

And now, since my life has changed, I find that I can do just that whenever I can and I make no apologies for it. Me Time has become important. It’s a chance to switch my brain off and relax. My confidence has grown to the extent where I am comfortable in my own company, so during my me time, I’ll take every opportunity to thoroughly enjoy it as much as possible! Continue reading

Time For Me…

imageIt may only be 6.30pm, but it’s Friday and after a very tough week I am feeling a sense of utter relief. The Bloke is away for the weekend (he’s attending his 30th school reunion), so I started the evening by having a drink at the pub and after returning home I changed into my jammies, cooked a nice bowl of creamy pasta, brought my duvet downstairs and I am now happily relaxed with two sleepy kitties, all of us with full bellies.

Of course, I have a wonderful relationship and I always miss The Bloke when he’s away, but this is the first time in a while that I have had a prolonged period of time to myself. I love the idea that in a world of endless possibilities and activities that I could do and see tonight, I am allowed to decide to do nothing, however wrong that sounds.

I’ve been riddled with self-doubt over recent months. Questions have been plaguing my thoughts – have I done the right thing? Did I just have a knee-jerk reaction to a stressful situation? What if I can’t find enough work to cover my expenses? However, today I was given the prospect of an exciting opportunity… I’ll give more details when I have a definitive plan, but it’s added to my sense of euphoria.

I’m also excited about Steve’s blog party tomorrow and I’m looking forward to meeting lots of lovely new bloggers! If you haven’t heard about it and want to participate, click on the link below…

https://suzie81speaks.com/2015/05/09/blog-party-next-saturday-anyone/

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I can’t predict the future – anything and everything could go wrong… But for the next six or seven hours, time is mine.

Bliss…

What about you guys? Have you got any exciting plans for the weekend?

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